Day 3: Be Innocent
When your awareness turns upon itself it is not knowledge, certainly.
It is not the ordinary knowing either.
It is not ignorance, certainly, because you know.
But it is such a unique knowing that in this knowing you become innocent:
Innocent of all idea of knowing, knowledge, ignorance.
All those words disappear.
You are simply there.
It is an experience, and such an experience that cannot be described by any word which has its opposite.
“Ignorance” cannot describe it, because knowledge its opposite. “Knowledge” cannot describe it, because ignorance is its opposite. “Knowing” cannot describe because unknowing is its opposite.
Then what can scribe it? Only a contradiction – only a contradiction – can indicate it. You will have to use contradiction for the simple reason that the contradiction kills itself and leaves no trace behind. And that’s what is innocence.
When I know that I know not, it is through language to help you have a little glimpse of what happens when contradictions meet – both I know and I know not. They will cross each other, kill each other, destroy each other. And what will remain? Just an innocent awareness.
Ignorance is not innocent. Ignorance feels inferiority; the ego hurts. Knowing is not innocent.
Knowing buttresses the ego; it gives you a feeling of superiority. I am putting superiority and inferiority together. They cancel each other, and the very cancellation of each other leaves you alone and innocent.
