You must have heard the name of one great Dutch painter Vincent van Gogh. He was ugly, very ugly, and no woman could ever manage to say to him, “I love you.” Of course, he remained retarded – the moon center never functioned. He was repulsive. People will look at him and escape. He used to work in an art dealer’s shop, and the man, the owner, watched him day in, day out. He looked so dull, as if much dust had gathered on his being, and he will not take interest in anything. Customers will come, he will show the paintings, but he will not take any interest. Continuously burdened, not interested in anything, indifferent. He will walk like a zombie – has to walk, so he will walk, but no zest, no life, no intensity, no passion.
One day suddenly the owner could not believe his eyes. He had come, and it seemed he had taken a bath after many months, or many years maybe. He has taken a bath, he has combed his hair, and his step has a dance in it and he is humming a tune. Impossible. And he has good clothes on him and he is wearing perfume. Impossible.
The owner called him, “Van Gogh, what has happened?” Van Gogh said, “It has happened – a woman has said she loves me. Though the woman was only a prostitute but still. She has said so only for money, but still, a woman has said she loves me.”
Van Gogh asked the woman, the prostitute, “Why do you love me?” Because that was always a haunting thought in him. Nobody loves him; he knew his ugliness. “Why do you love me?” It was impossible for him to accept that somebody can love him just for himself – “WHY?” And the prostitute was at a loss because there was nothing to say, because whatsoever she would say, will look ridiculous.
She cannot say, “Because of your eyes,” she cannot say, “Because of your face,” she cannot say, “Because of your body” – everything is some. how wrong. She said, “Because of your ears. They are so beautiful.” Ears? Have you ever heard of it? And he was so enchanted that he came back home, cut off one ear, wrapped it in a parcel, went back, and presented the ear to the woman. He said, “Nobody has ever liked anything in me. This is a poor man’s present, but keep it.” The woman was aghast. She could not believe, what type of madman is this?
But he felt very good – he felt tremendously good. He writes in one of his letters, “That was the peak of my life. Somebody had liked something in me, and I could share my being.”
Watch, observe. Whenever somebody loves you, and simply loves you, unconditionally loves you, simply says, “I love you because you are you; I love you because you are,” what happens within your energies? The sun has moved towards the moon. Now the sun is not so hot; the moon is cooling it.
And the grace of moonlight spreads all over your being.
If the world exists more in tune with love, people will have more intuition and less intellect, and they will become more beautiful. They will not be like things; they will each be more of a person – alive with zest, with passion, intensity. They will have a flame and a celebration.
Intuition is totally different. It functions without any process – it simply jumps to the conclusion. In fact intuition is an opening towards reality – a vision comes to it. Logic has to grope in darkness; intuition never gropes, just a vision. It simply sees it.
People who are intuitive become religious naturally. People who are intellectual cannot become religious naturally. At the most, they can be intellectually involved in some sort of a religious philosophy, but not in religion as such. They can be involved in theology, but not in religion. They can talk about the proof of God, but to talk about God is not to talk about God. To talk about is to miss the target – about and about, they move in a circle. They always go on beating around and around the bush; they never hit the target.
Intellectuals have no natural tendency to become religious. That’s the reason you see temples, churches, so full of women. The moon feels naturally in tune with religion. Buddha had three times more women than men as his disciples. The same proportion was with Mahavir: he had ten thousand monks and thirty thousand nuns. You will find the same around Jesus – and when he was crucified, all men followers fled.
When Jesus’ body was brought down from the cross, only three women were there. Because those men were watching from the crowd for some miracle. They were trying to convince their sun center that, “Yes, this is God’s only son,” but nothing happened. They were asking for proof. They were praying to God and to Jesus, “Show a miracle so that we can be convinced.” Once they saw that Jesus died like an ordinary man, absolutely ordinary – there were two other men who were dying on crosses just by the side of Jesus, two thieves, and Jesus died just like them, with no difference at all – the men became skeptical. Then this man was bogus – he was not really a son of God. So he was not a god; they escaped.
But this idea never arose to women. They were not looking for a miracle; they were just looking at Jesus. They were not looking for a miracle, they were just looking at Jesus – and they saw the miracle. They saw the miracle: that Jesus died so ordinarily. That was a miracle. He didn’t try to prove anything, because people who try to prove are defensive. He was not defensive. He simply said to God, “Thy kingdom come, thy will be done.” That was his miracle. And he said to God, “Forgive these poor people because they don’t know what they are doing.” That was the miracle – he could pray for those who were murdering him, pray for compassion. He told God, “Put your judgement aside, put your judging attitude aside. Listen to me. These people are innocent; they don’t know what they are doing. They are ignorant. Please don’t be angry with them, don’t be annoyed. Forgive them.” That was a miracle.
The women could see it because they were not looking for the miracle. The intellect is always looking for something; the intuition is simply open. Not looking for something in particular, just looking – it is a vision. That is the meaning of the word “intuition.”
When Jesus appeared after three days, first he approached the men disciples. He walked with them, he talked with them, but they couldn’t recognize him. They had accepted the idea that he is dead – finished. In fact they must be feeling sorry – “We wasted so many of our years with this man.”
Now they must be looking for some other miracle monger, some juggler; they must be looking for somebody else. And Jesus walked with them, talked to them, and they did not recognize him. Then he had to approach the women. And when he came close and Mary Magdalene saw him, she ran – she wanted to embrace him. She immediately recognized him. And she did not even ask, “How has it happened? – Three days before, you were crucified.” The intuition never asks how and why. It simply accepts. It is a deep acceptability, total acceptability.
If you live in a loving atmosphere…. And you have to create the atmosphere around you – nobody is going to create it for you. Love people, so that they will love you. Love people, so love is reflected back, resounded back. Love people, so you are showered by love. Your intuition will start functioning.
You will start seeing things which you had never seen before. And the world remains the same, but some new meaning appears in it. The flowers remain the same, but some new mystery is revealed to you. The birds go on singing the same way, but now you can understand their language. Suddenly there is communication, suddenly there is communion.
Intuition is closer to truth than intellect is because it makes you a person – more of a person – than does intellect.
And then there is pratibha, that which is beyond both – the supra intuition. Nothing can be said about it because all that can be said can be said either in sun language or in moon language. Either it can be described in a scientific way or it can be sung in a poetic way, but there is no way to describe pratibha. It is beyond. One has to feel it, one has to live it to know it.
People will come to Gautam Buddha and they will say, “Tell us something about God.” And he will say, “Keep quiet, be silent. Remain with me – and it will happen to you.” It is not a question that can be asked and answered, and it is not a problem that can be solved. It is a mystery to be lived. It’s an ecstasy. It’s a tremendous experience.
The way of the intellect:
One day Mulla was in the village mill, filling his bag with a little bit of every other person’s wheat.
“Why are you doing that, Nasruddin?.” someone asked.
“Because I am a fool,” Mulla replied.
“Why don’t you then fill other people’s bags with your own wheat, if you are a fool?”
“Then,” Mulla answered, “I would be more of a fool.”
Intellect is cunning; intellect is calculating. Intellect is always trying to exploit others. Intuition is just the opposite; it is not exploitative.
Now let me tell you one thing. People think that someday or other the world will come to a point where there will be no classes, no economic hierarchy – no poor, no rich. And the people who have given much thought to this dream, this utopia – Marx, Engels, Lenin, and Mao – they are all intellectuals, and intellect can never bring this state of affairs. Only in an intuitive world is it possible that classes may disappear. But they are against intuition – Marxians think intellect is all in all, there is nothing beyond it. If that is so then their utopia is never going to be fulfilled – because intellect as such is exploitative; it is cunning. Intellect is violent, aggressive, destructive.
The sun-energy is very violent and hot. It burns, it kills.
If there is really ever going to be a world without classes, a really communist world – where communes exist and there are no classes – then that world has to be completely anti Marxist. It has to be intuitive. And the builders of that world cannot be politicians – only poets, imaginative people, dreamers.
I would like to say man cannot be the creator of that world, only woman. The moon can create a world of equality, not the sun.
A Buddha, a Jesus, maybe can be helpful towards that utopia and the fulfillment of it, but Marx? No, absolutely no. He is too calculative, too clever, too intellectual. But the world has been ruled by the sun up to now. That was also natural because the sun is aggressive.
Now the possibility opens that the sun is tired, exhausted, frustrated, and humanity may start looking for another center to work with. That will be the real rise of women in the world: if the moon rises.
But, as I see, in the West there is great excitement amongst women, great movement, revolutionary thinking, radical thought – the lib movement – but they are all falling and becoming intellectuals.
They are becoming more like men.
If women react to men they will become more like men themselves. That is the danger.
The woman should remain woman, only then is there a possibility of a different world and a different society – the moon oriented society. But if the woman herself becomes aggressive, as she is becoming, then she is learning the nonsense of man and the aggression of man and the violence of man. She may succeed, but the sun will succeed in her again.
One has to be very, very alert in radical times. When changes are going to happen in human consciousness, one has to be very alert. Just a single wrong step, and the whole thing can go wrong. Now the possibility is there that the moon can function and the moon can become dominant, but the woman, if she becomes aggressive, will miss and again man will win through her and the sun will remain in power.
From intellect to intuition and from intuition to beyond. This is the right direction of evolution: from man to woman and from woman to beyond.
Now one question has been asked, that this is understandable as far as man is concerned – what about women? They are on the moon center. What do they have to do?
They will have to absorb the sun center. As man has to absorb the moon center, woman has to absorb the sun center. Otherwise something remains denied in them; then they will not be whole women. So a man has to move from the sun center to the moon, from intellect to intuition. The woman has to learn intellect also, has to learn the logic of life also. She knows the love of life, man knows the logic of life; man has to learn the love of life and woman has to learn the logic of life. Then a balance arises.
Women will have to absorb the sun center – and she can absorb very easily because her moon is functioning. The moon just has to open in the direction of the sun. The path is going to be just a little different: for man the sun-energy has to be brought to the moon; for women, they have just to open their moon towards the sun and the energy will start flowing.
But both have to become total. The conscious has to absorb the unconscious and the division has to drop.
Jesus says, “A man becomes a woman and a woman becomes a man.” When you accept your totality and you don’t deny any part of your being, everything becomes balanced. And when a woman and man are balanced within you, they negate each other. Suddenly you are free. Those two forces negate each other, and suddenly you are no longer in bondage.
You can remain in bondage only if one is more powerful than the other. If the sun is more powerful than the moon, then you will be in bondage with your man – the male mind. If the moon is stronger than the sun, then you will remain in the bondage of woman – the female. When both are equal, balancing, they negate each other; suddenly, your energy is free. You are not in any form now, you become formless. That formlessness is pratibha. Then you start rising higher and higher and higher – and there is no end to this growth.
That is the meaning when we say God is infinite. You go on growing and growing – you go on becoming more perfect, more perfect, more perfect…. Each moment is perfect and each next coming moment is more perfect than that.
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