Dissolved In Self
To be filled with consciousness of the self is helpful in dissolving the self. But if you hold on to the self, then that which is helpful can also become an obstacle.
This is going to be a hard task for you, first to attain and then to lose – because you can lose only something which you possess. If you don’t possess it, how can you lose it?
If you are all for it only so that you can go beyond it, you can dissolve it. It has to become a stepping stone.
This is one of the paradoxes of spiritual life: the more one dissolves into the divine, the more united one becomes. The dissolution is not of the individuality but of the self: the dissolution is not of the uniqueness but of the ego.
The word personality and the word individuality must not be confused, they are totally different. They do not mean any similar entity; they are not the same at all. Personality belongs to the ego, individuality to the being. Personality is just a facade. The ego is the center and the personality is the circumference. It is not individuality at all.
There is no need to be against it. Dive deep into it, go into it. Going into it means bringing awareness into your house, bringing light into darkness. Be alert, watchful. Watch the ways of the ego, how it functions, how it manages at all. And you will be surprised: the deeper you go into it, the less it is found. And when you have penetrated to the very core of your being, you will find something totally different which is not ego, which is egolessness. It is self, supreme self – it is godliness. You have disappeared as a separate entity; you are no more an island. Now you are part of the whole.
