Learning
Clock: Always moving into the same vicious circle.
Our mind is also moving in the similar way. Repeating same thing again and again. This has resulted into – mind has become a sick wound. It is no longer a healthy center, it has turned into an unhealthy ulcer. That is why all our attention is concentrated on it.
This sickness took us away from ourselves. We try to forget ourselves by seeking other people’s company, temple, movies etc.
When the other is present, we are involved in relating to him and we are not aware about ourselves.
The search for the other is nothing but the search for an opportunity to escape from oneself. The basic reason that we become interested in other people is that we are afraid of ourselves, and we know very well that if we know ourselves completely, we will find that we are absolutely mad. To escape from this state man searches for company, searches for a companion, searches for a friend, searches for society, searches for a crowd.
Man is afraid of aloneness. He becomes afraid of aloneness because in aloneness he will find a reflection of his real state, he will come across the reflection of his own face. And it will be very frightening, very scary. So, from getting up in the morning till going to sleep at night, he uses all kinds of methods to escape from himself so that he doesn’t have to face himself. He is afraid that he may see himself.
The effort to get entangled in anything outside oneself – the effort to become entangled in anything is deep down nothing but an effort to escape from oneself. We are all engaged in escaping from the self in one way or the other. This shows that our condition inside is getting worse and we are losing the courage even to look at it. We are very afraid to look in that direction. We are acting like ostriches. Seeing the enemy an ostrich hides its face in the sand because it is dangerous to look at the enemy. Because the enemy is not visible, the ostrich?s logic says, “That which is not visible is not there. I am safe.” But this logic is wrong.
Ostriches can be forgiven but man cannot. By not being visible something does not cease to exist.
If a thing is visible, something can be done about it, but if it is invisible there is no possibility of doing anything.
Cure for this sickness is – Do anything as if you are doing for the first time. You will be surprised that you can do same act with so many different ways. For the first time you will feel yourself. Because when you act every time differently you are no more depending on knowledge. You will take your first step towards knowing.
Learning from Clock: Be Learner
