Infinite Delight – In Gita Verse 10.38 Among all means of suppressing lawlessness I am punishment, and of those who seek victory I am morality. Of secret things I am silence, and of the wise I am the wisdom.
While reading this verse we feel that Krishna is indicating four things. But read again and again. You will find he gives us the message that you may pass through different circumstances and situations. I am always there to make you alert.
As human beings, many times we become unconscious towards ourselves. He creates circumstances in which we feel it is punishment but in that punishment he is giving his presence and making us aware of ourselves. So we become self-conscious.
When we seek victory there are all chances that we may become unconscious towards ourselves and act immoral. So he will make sure that our desire for victory doesn’t make us unconscious. We become desireless and act.
When he says secret it means mystery. Mystery always reveals itself in silence.
By saying of the wise I am wisdom he says that I am quality, ethics in you.
In my Bhagavad Gita Verse 3.15, blog I wrote – That’s what meditation is all about – to become more alert. Live the same life, just change your alertness – make it more intense. Eat the same food, walk the same path, live in the same house, be with the same woman and the children, but be totally different from your inside.
We don’t allow our consciousness to rise higher because then life would be a constant surprise and you might not be able to manage it. That’s why you have settled for a dull mind, there is some investment in it. You are not dull for no reason, you are dull for a certain purpose – if you were really alive then everything would be surprising and shocking.
If you remain dull then nothing surprises you, nothing is shocking. The more dull you are, the more life seems to be dull to you. If you become more aware, life will also become more alive, livelier, and there is going to be difficulty.
You always live with dead expectations. Every day you come home and you expect certain behavior from your wife. Now look at how you create your own misery: you expect a certain fixed behavior from your wife and then you expect your wife to be new.
You are asking the impossible. If you really want your wife to remain continuously new to you, don’t expect it. Come home always ready to be surprised and shocked, then the wife will be new. But she has to fulfill certain expectations. We never allow our total flux-like freshness to be known to the other. We go on hiding, we don’t expose, because the other may not be able to understand it at all. And the wife also expects the husband to behave in a certain way, and, of course, they manage the roles.
We are not living life, we are living roles. The husband comes home; he forces himself into a certain role. By the time he enters the house, he is no more an alive person – he is just a husband.
A husband means a certain type of expected behavior. The woman there is a wife, and the man there is a husband. Now when these two persons meet there are really four persons: the husband and wife, which are not real persons – just personas, masks, false patterns, expected behavior, duties, and all that – and the real persons hiding behind the masks. Those real people feel bored.
But you have invested much in your persona, in your mask. If you really want a life which has no boredom in it, drop all masks, be true. Sometimes it will be difficult, I know, but it is worth it. Be true. If you feel like loving your wife, love her, otherwise say you don’t feel like it. What is happening right now is that the husband goes on making love to the wife, and goes on thinking of some actress.
In imagination he is not making love to this woman, in imagination he is making love to some other woman. And the same is true about the wife. Then things become boring because they are no longer alive. The intensity, the sharpness, is lost.
Marcel has said somewhere that the only metaphysical problem facing humanity is suicide. And it is so, because people are so bored. It is simply amazing why they don’t commit suicide; how they go on living.
Life doesn’t seem to give anything, all meaning seems to be lost, but still people go on dragging somehow, hoping that some day some miracle will happen and everything will be put right. It never happens. You have to put it right; nobody else is going to put it right. No Messiah is to come. Don’t wait for any Messiah. You have to be a light unto yourself.
Live more authentically. Drop the masks; they are a weight on your heart. Drop all falsities. Be exposed. Of course it is going to be troublesome but that trouble is worth it because only after that trouble will you grow and become mature. And then nothing is holding life. Each moment life reveals its newness. It is a constant miracle happening all around you only you are hiding behind dead habits.
Become a Buddha if you don’t want to be bored. Live each moment as fully alert as possible, because only in full alertness will you be able to drop the mask. You have completely forgotten what your original face is. Even when you stand before the mirror in your bathroom and you are alone, nobody is there, even standing before the mirror you don’t see your original face in the mirror. There too you go on deceiving.
Krishna says – Existence is available for those who are available to existence. And then there is no boredom. Life is an infinite delight.
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