VBT – Meditation 57.0
IN MOODS OF EXTREME DESIRE, BE UNDISTURBED.
Undisturbed By Desires
“IN MOODS OF EXTREME DESIRE, BE UNDISTURBED”: When desire grips you, you are disturbed. Of course, that is natural. Desire grips you, then your mind starts wavering and many ripples go on, on the surface. The desire pulls you somewhere into the future; the past pushes you somewhere in the future. You are disturbed, you are not at ease. Desire is, therefore, a “dis-ease.”
This sutra says, “IN MOODS OF EXTREME DESIRE, BE UNDISTURBED.” But how to be undisturbed? Desire means disturbance, so how to be undisturbed – and in extreme moments of desire? You will have to do certain experiments; only then will you understand what it means.
You are in anger, anger grips you, you are temporarily mad, possessed, you are no more in your senses. Suddenly remember to be undisturbed – as if you are undressing. Inside, become naked, naked from the anger, undressed. Anger will be there, but now you have a point within you which is not disturbed.
You will know that anger is there on the periphery. Like fever, it is there. The periphery is wavering; the periphery is disturbed. But you can look at it. If you can look at it, you will be undisturbed.
Become a witness to it, and you will be undisturbed. This undisturbed point is your original mind.
The original mind cannot be disturbed; it is never disturbed – but you have never looked at it. When anger is there, you become identified with the anger. You forget that anger is something other than you. You become one with it, and you start acting through it, you start doing something through it.
Two things can be done. In anger you will be violent to someone, to the object of your anger. Then you have moved to the other. Anger is just in between you and the other. Here I am, then there is anger, and there you are – the object of my anger. From anger I can travel in two dimensions: either I can travel to you; then you become my center of consciousness, the object of my anger. Then my mind becomes focused on you, the one who has insulted me. This is one way how you can travel from anger. There is another way: you can travel to yourself. You don’t move to the person whom you feel has caused the anger. You move to the person who feels to be angry; you move to the subject and not to the object.
Ordinarily, we go on moving to the object. If you move to the object, the dust part of your mind is disturbed, and you will feel, “‘l’ am disturbed.” If you move within the center of your own being, you will be able to witness the dust part; you will be able to see that the dust part of the mind is disturbed, but “I am not disturbed.” And you can experiment upon this with any desire, any disturbance.
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