Own Temple – In Gita Verse 6.36 This is my doubt, O Kṛṣṇa, and I ask You to dispel it completely. But for You, no one is to be found who can destroy this doubt.
Arjuna requested Krishna to dispel his doubts completely as he thinks that something is wrong with doubt. There is nothing wrong in doubt. Only thing we need to learn how to use it.
Everything depends on right use. So when you go to the world, use doubt; when you enter into your own temple, use trust. Be loose and free so that when you go from the world to own temple you don’t carry the world around with you. Then you can enter own temple totally free of the world — you can pray, dance, sing. And when you move towards the world again, leave the temple behind, because dancing in the world will be very absurd — you may destroy things.
Bringing the serious face that you use in the world to own temple won’t be appropriate. Own temple is a celebration; a world is a search. Search has to be serious; a celebration is a play. You delight in it, you become children again. Own temple is a place to become children again and again, so you never lose touch with your original source. In the lab you are an adult; in the temple you are a child. And Jesus says, “The kingdom of God is for those who are like children.”
In my Bhagavad Gita Verse 4.40, blog I wrote Nothing is wrong in doubt, don’t be worried about it. Use it well, use it in the right way. If you use it in the right way and use it well, you will come to an understanding: you will come to a doubt of doubt itself. You will see – you will become doubtful of doubt.
The mind lives on these doubts. The mind says, “Who knows? This man may be deceiving me. Maybe he is not deceiving, but he himself may be deceived. He may be hallucinating about ecstasy, samadhi – just dreaming, believing. Maybe he has auto-hypnotized himself or maybe he is just a fraud deceiving others, exploiting their gullibility.” The mind will create all these questions, thousands of questions. Questions arise in the mind like leaves grow on trees; the mind goes on growing many, many questions every moment. No answer is of any help. Out of every answer, the mind will create many more questions.
It’s natural to feel doubt. If there is no doubt, there is no growth either. The more you are full of doubt and still go on the journey; that makes the difference. The stupid person, the imbecile, the idiot may not feel any doubts, he may simply believe, but he is not going on any adventure. He cannot understand what adventure is. He is just accidental, he is at the mercy of the winds. But the intelligent person is bound to feel doubt. In spite of the doubt, one has to go; that’s how life is. Aes dhammo sanantano – this is the law of life. In spite of all the doubts, one has to go.
Do you think the people who have tried to reach Everest were not full of doubt? For a hundred years, how many people tried and how many people have lost their lives? Do you know how many people never came back? Not even their dead bodies came back; they got lost, lost forever. But, still, a few courageous people went on and on.
Don’t listen to the mind because the mind means the past; it is dead, already dead and gone. It is non-existential. It is only the footprints of the events that are no more. The mind knows nothing of the present, it cannot know of the present. It hasn’t any capacity to commune with the present because the present is always unknown. You cannot reduce it to the past. The fear of the mind is that the moment you encounter the present you have to be spontaneous, and the mind becomes useless. The mind has to be put aside.
And that is the moment where meditation starts happening. To remain confined to the known is to be in the mind; to allow the unknown to enter your being is the beginning of meditation, the beginning of Zen. The present can be approached only through no-mind. If you have any conclusions, you are still carrying the past; conclusions come from the past, prejudices come from the past. You have to put aside everything you have known. You have to look into the present in a state of not-knowing. The mind will tremble – let it tremble. Let it die out of trembling. Don’t listen to it.
The mind will create many doubts. That’s why you say “…there are doubts…” It is natural, the mind will create many doubts. The mind will say, “You are perfectly happy, you are perfectly comfortable. Why are you risking? For what? You may lose even that which you have, and not gain anything. Don’t risk!” The mind teaches you to be calculative, to be cautious.
When Arjuna tells Krishna – I ask You to dispel it completely. But for You, no one is to be found who can destroy this doubt – he was following the mind. He did not want to take responsibility for his act. So he is asking Krishna to destroy his doubts. Which Krishna cannot do it. Only thing Krishna can do is he can guide him for various practice by which Arjuna can transcend his doubt. He can enter into his own temple with Trust. Your own temple is your interiority.