Know Well
Know well that you cannot be attuned to the infinite through thinking. Only through silence, only through a non-thinking awareness, a non-thinking sensitivity will you be attuned. Thinking is the disturbance, the barrier, because whenever you are thinking you are not in the universe. You are enclosed in your mind.
Whenever you are not thinking you are not enclosed. The walls have disappeared, you have moved into existence. Thinking is non-existential. Non-thinking.
But remember, non-thinking plus awareness. You can move into sleep; that will not do. Non-thinking and alert: no thought in the mind, no clouds in the mind, and alert. In that non-cloudy moment, in that alertness, you penetrate existence. You become one with it. Then the wave is the ocean.
Let me say the same thing in different way for more clarity.
Unconsciousness is a wandering outside; consciousness is a deepening of the inside.
A man of consciousness responds, and his responses are spontaneous. He is mirror like: he reflects whatsoever confronts him. And out of this spontaneity, out of this consciousness, a new kind of action is born. That action never creates any bondage, any karma. That action frees you. You remain a freedom if you listen to your nature.
Responsibility is awareness, alertness, consciousness. Ego is just unconsciousness. They cannot coexist. As you grow more conscious you grow more towards light, and anything belonging to the world of darkness starts disappearing. Ego is nothing but darkness.
Consciousness means living with a witness; unconsciousness means living without a witness. When you are walking on the road, you can walk consciously — that’s what Buddha says one should do — you are alert, deep down you are aware that you are walking; you are conscious of each movement. You are conscious of the birds singing in the trees, the early morning sun coming through the trees, the rays touching you, the warmth, the fresh air, the fragrance of newly opening flowers. A dog starts barking, a train passes by, you are breathing… you are watching everything. You are not excluding anything out of your alertness; you are taking everything in. The breath goes in, the breath goes out… you are watching everything that is happening.
Desire exists with unconsciousness, it cannot exist with consciousness; when you move in desire, consciousness disappears. Hence so much insistence by all the buddhas and Jainas for desirelessness. When you are desireless you will be aware; when you are aware you will be desireless. These are two aspects of the same coin — on one aspect, desirelessness; on another aspect, alertness, consciousness.
If your life was of meditativeness, awareness, witnessing, then you will be able to witness death too. If your whole life you remained cool, centered in different situations, death will give you the ultimate challenge, the ultimate test. And if you can remain centered, calm and cool and watching, then you will not die an unconscious death, your death will bring you to the ultimate peak of consciousness.
