Beyond Love – In Gita Verse 18.23 That action which is regulated and which is performed without attachment, without love or hatred, and without desire for fruitive results is said to be in the mode of goodness.
Krishna is saying very specifically that your action which is without love and hatred is a mode of goodness.
Because love is not just a love relationship; it is a love-hate relationship: Couples always face this kind of inner conflict within themselves. One couple came to Osho and asked – The woman says: I love him and hate him and I want to go away and I don’t want to ever leave him. I have never known anything like that before!
Osho’s answer – So you are really in love!…Love is the only problem! Once love is not there there is no problem left! There is nothing else left …Love brings both – the peaks and the valleys. The higher the peaks, the deeper will be the valley, and one has to learn to accept the negative part of it; it is always there. If you want to drop the negative part, the only way to drop it is to drop the positive part, but then the whole love is dropped. You cannot drop just the hate part. Love is not just a love relationship; it is a love-hate relationship.
It is being in constant turmoil. There will be moments of peace just as there are moments of peace in war. And they are beautiful, mm? because against the background of the conflict, when those moments come they are beautiful. Against the noise comes that silence, and it is beautiful. But it has something very basic in it that needs to be understood: if you love a person you want to come close, but there is only a point up to which you can come close. Beyond that the privacy of the other person starts.
The moment you start interfering with his privacy or he starts interfering with your privacy, a fight starts. We allow the other only to a certain extent – and nothing can be done about it – otherwise your soul will be destroyed. He wants you to be close to him but he does not want to be completely effaced. Otherwise you will take him inside you. Then he will become afraid: ‘This woman is going to kill me!’
You would like him to be very close to you but only to a certain extent. And by and by you will know, and by and by you will watch and you will see where the point comes where you start overlapping on him or he starts overlapping on you. Immediately the energy changes: you start pushing him, you start going away. That’s part of it; you have to go away.
When you are again distant to a certain extent, you start feeling love for the other and you would like to come close. Mm? That’s why it feels like being a yo-yo, but love is a yo-yo. It is coming together just to separate again; it is going apart just to come back again.That coming together and the joy of it depends on going away. If you don’t go away, then you are stuck; then there will be no joy.
It is just like you eat; then for six, eight hours you fast. You cannot go on eating twenty-four hours a day. Otherwise all joy of eating will be destroyed – you will feel nausea. So for six, eight hours you forget about food – again hunger is there and again you are asking for food, longing for food…. And you will eat! And the moment you eat the hunger starts disappearing.
So the first bite has a different value; the second bite has less value than the first; the law of diminishing returns. It is not only economical; it is a very fundamental law. The second bite is not as satisfying as the first, the third will be less, the fourth will be less, and so on, so forth, and after thirty minutes you are finished. If somebody forces you now, you will say, ‘What are you doing?’ You will start fighting.
There is a limit – you can eat only so far. Beyond that is nausea, vomiting, indigestion and problems. So you stop and you forget food for a few hours. It is the same with love.
Love is food – food for the soul. You cannot eat it for twenty-four hours a day. So a real love affair is a constant honeymoon/divorce, honeymoon/divorce. That way it goes – like a yo-yo. So it is perfectly good! If you want a love affair this is how it is to be. If you want a marriage – nice, secure, no fight, nothing, goody-goody – then you can manage that too. But that is not worth much. One has to pay for every joy, remember it! You cannot avoid paying. The fight is the payment, the price. If you desire that joy of being together, of melting and merging into each other, then you will have to suffer the pain of going away again and again.
And remember: love is the only problem! Once you have gone beyond love the world is finished; then you will not be coming back into the world again. That is nirvana – gone forever.
And that’s why Osho goes on helping his sannyasins to be more in love – so that you can see all the joy and all the misery of it, the ecstasy and the agony. Watching, moving into it, living in it, experiencing it, one day you will go beyond it. That day – when you go beyond love – is the day of meditation. Then you start being happy just in your aloneness; then you don’t need the other.
These are the two steps towards god: love – you are happy but somebody else is needed, your happiness has a kind of dependence, the other is needed. You are not enough unto yourself, you are half, and only when the other is there do you feel a kind of wholeness. When the other is not there you start being miserable; something is missing.
But through the experience of love, the authentic experience of love – which is not possible in marriage because marriage is bogus… Nobody can go from marriage into meditation, it is impossible, because the man has missed the first step.
It is only through love – the anguish and the ecstasy of it – that you learn, that you see, that you visualise, that you become capable of coming to certain conclusions. And the greatest conclusion that one arrives at spontaneously one day is that if one really wants to be eternally happy, then that happiness has to be in aloneness; it cannot depend on the other. That which depends on the other certainly depends on the other – you are not the master of it; you are a slave.
And that’s why there is conflict: nobody wants to be a slave.
Freedom is a higher value than love, and the whole conflict is between these two values: love and freedom. But you can know only that freedom is a higher value than love if you have been in love. Going through experience beyond love, you arrive at freedom. I’m not saying that you become unloving, no. Then a different quality of love arises in you which is more like friendship, not like lust. Then you can give your love to anybody who is available but you are no more dependent on it. Then there is no more any honeymoon and no more any divorce; it is just a pure sharing of energy.
If nobody is there you are perfectly happy. If somebody is there you are perfectly happy; there is no difference between your aloneness and your togetherness. That’s what meditation is – but that’s a higher state… higher than love. My emphasis on love relationships is basically so that I can drive you towards the beyond.
So let it be so – go into it… go into it as totally as possible. And both sides have to live totally. When you are miserable, then be really miserable and when you are happy, then be really happy. And it will be driving you almost mad because one moment you are so miserable and another moment you are so happy. And the distance is so much that to travel continuously from these two distances from one to another is almost like going from one planet to another. But that will make you mature, integrated, and capable of being alone one day.You continue! Good!
Krishna says once you have understood love-hate and when your love will be so pure that it is not dependent on others, then your action will be a mode of goodness.Tags: Beyond Love