Doer Leaves
A moment will come in your meditation when only you will be in your way, nobody else. A moment is bound to come in your own growth also when everything is clear and only you are in the way. So never think about what others are thinking about your meditation. Never think about others – why they are judging you, how they are judging you. Their judgment is their affair; it is their business, it has nothing to do with you. You do your thing and do it totally. Efface yourself utterly, then everything starts happening.
The moment the doer leaves, everything starts happening. The doer is the problem if meditation is not happening; you are still doing it. Let it happen. You are still a doer, you are still watching how and what others are thinking, whether they will judge you mad. If their judgment is in your mind you cannot be total, you are divided.
Only the ego thinks about others, because it depends on others. It is nothing but a collection of others’ opinions, what others say about you. You are continuously on display, an exhibitionist: “What are others thinking, what are others saying?” Because of these others your ego remains, becomes more and more solid, crystallized.
Have you ever observed that whenever you are not thinking of others and not thinking of what they think about you, suddenly you have a different flow of energy within you, an unblocked flow? – There is no block and the river flows to the ocean. And then whatsoever you do becomes a masterpiece – whatsoever! Your quality is now totally different. Now you exist on a different plane altogether, and whatsoever you do, even a very small thing, becomes totally different. It becomes The First Principle.
If you are total, even just if you remove your shoes before you enter this house, you remove them in a different way. It becomes The First Principle. If a calligraphy, just three words, “the first principle,” can become a great message, why not shoes? The way you walk becomes the first principle. You walk unself-consciously – you walk like an animal, like a bird, or you sit under a tree and you sit like a tree, unself-conscious. And then suddenly many millions of things start flowering within you. The only problem is that you are, and the only solution is that you should not be there.
Just give way; don’t stand there, just give way, just put yourself aside. Difficult – that’s why it is the first principle. But once you can do it the temple is opened, you have entered. There is nobody blocking the way except you.
Look at how you do things and you will always find the ego. People saying prayers always look around; go to a mosque and watch, go to a temple and watch. If many people are there, then people say their prayer with a fervor. If there is nobody to look at them they simply do it in haste, as if the prayer is not addressed to God but to the bystanders, to the onlookers.
This is happening continuously whatsoever you do. You are not enjoying the act, you are enjoying others’ opinions. And what value does it carry, what is the meaning in it? Why are you here? – Just to be judged by others that you are a very good man, a religious man, a meditator, a seeker after truth? Truth doesn’t seem to be so important as others saying that you are a great seeker after truth.
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