Dream

Purity Of Aloneness

When you are completely disconnected, nobody bothers you, nobody can bother you. Suddenly you are there in all your aloneness, in that purity of aloneness, in that pristine purity of aloneness. You are like virgin land, a virgin peak in the Himalayas where nobody has ever traveled. This is what virginity is.

This is what Osho means when he says yes, Jesus’ mother was a virgin. This is what he means. He doesn’t agree with the Christian theologians – whatever they say is all bull. This is what virginity is. Jesus must have been conceived by Mary when she was in such a disconnected state. When you are in such a disconnected state, of course if a child enters, he can only be a Jesus, nobody else.

In ancient India there were methods for how to conceive a child. Unless you are tremendously in deep meditation, don’t make love. Let meditation be a preparation for love: that is the whole meaning of Tantra. Let meditation be the basis; only then make love. Then you invite greater souls. The deeper you are, the greater soul will be invited.

Mary must have been absolutely disconnected in that moment when Jesus entered her. She must have been in this virginity; she must have been a host. She was no longer a guest, and she was no longer being clamored at by the guest, no longer identified with the guest. She was not the body, she was not the mind, she was not her thoughts, she was not a wife – she was nobody. In this nobodiness she was there, sitting silently: a pure light, a flame without any smoke around it, a smokeless flame. She was a virgin.

Also Osho says to you, exactly the same is the case when Buddha is conceived or when Mahavira is conceived, or Krishna is conceived or Nanak is conceived – because these people cannot be conceived in any other way. These people can enter only the most virgin womb. This is my meaning of being a virgin. It has nothing to do with the foolish ideas that go around: she never loved a man, Jesus was not conceived with a man, Jesus was not the son of Joseph. That’s why Christians go on saying, “Jesus, the son of Mary.” They don’t talk about his father; he was not a father. Son of Mary and son of God – there was no Joseph in-between.

But why be so angry at poor Joseph? Why can’t God use Joseph if he can use Mary? What is wrong in it? He uses Mary for the womb; that does not spoil the story. Then why not use Joseph too? The womb is half the story because a cell from the mother has been used. Then why not use a cell from Joseph? Why be so angry at this poor carpenter?

No, God uses both, but the state of consciousness must have been of the host. And really, when you are the host it is no wonder when you receive the greatest guest: Jesus comes. If you are disidentified from all the guests, then God becomes your guest. First you become the host, a pure host. Then God becomes your guest.

When you are disconnected, then “you-in-yourself.” Now ask yourself, “What is this ‘you-in-yourself’?” You can never answer this question. It is unanswerable because it is cut off from all knowable relationships. This way one stumbles upon the unknowable. This is entering meditation. When you have become settled into it, utterly settled, it becomes samadhi.