VBT – Meditation 84.1

VBT – Meditation 84.1

Deep Identification

This is a paranoid condition. You live as the body and you think and talk as the soul – then there is a struggle and a conflict and then you are constantly in an inner turmoil, a deep unease which cannot be bridged. So first encounter the fact you don’t know anything about the soul, the self – all that you know is about the body.

This will release a very uneasy condition in you. All that is hidden will come up to the surface. In realising this fact that you are the body, you will literally start perspiring. In realising this fact that you are the body, you will feel very uneasy, strange, but that feeling has to be gone through; only then can you know what attachment to the body means.

Teachers go on saying that you should not be attached to your body, but the basic thing – what the attachment to the body is – is unknown to you. Attachment to the body is a deep identification with the body, but first you have to realise what this identification is. So put aside all your knowledge that has given you an illusory sense that you are the soul. Realise that you know only one thing, and that is the body. How does this create and how does this release hidden turmoil and a hidden hell within you?

The moment you realise you are the body, for the first time you realise the attachment. For the first time you grip the fact in your consciousness that this body which is born, and this body which is going to die, is you. For the first time you realise the fact that these bones, these bones – this is you.

For the first time you realise the fact that this sex, this anger – this is you. So all the false images fall. You become real.

The reality is painful, very painful – that’s why we go on hiding it. It is a deep trick. You go on thinking about yourself as the self, and everything that you don’t like, you throw on the body. So you say sex belongs to the body, love belongs to you. Then you say greed and anger, they belong to the body; compassion belongs to you. Compassion belongs to the self, and cruelty belongs to the body. Forgiveness belongs to the self, and anger belongs to the body. So whatsoever you feel is wrong, ugly, you throw to the body, and whatsoever you feel is beautiful, you go on being identified with. You create a division.

This division will not allow you to know what attachment is, and unless you know what attachment is and unless you suffer the misery of it and the hell of it, you cannot put it aside. How can you put it aside? You can put something aside only when it proves a disease, when it proves a heavy burden, when it proves a hell; only then can you put it aside.

Your attachment has not proved hell yet. Whatsoever Buddha says and Mahavir says is irrelevant.

They may go on saying that attachment is hell, but this is not your feeling. That’s why you again and again ask how to be detached, how to be not attached, how to go beyond attachment. You go on asking this ‘how’ only because you don’t know what attachment is. If you know what attachment is, you will simply jump out of it. You will not ask ‘how’.

If your house is on fire you will not ask anyone, you will not go seeking a master to ask how to come out of it. If the house is on fire you will simply get out of it. You will not lose a single moment. You will not search for the teacher, you will not consult the scriptures. And you will not try to choose in what ways one has to come out, what means have to be adopted, and which door is the right door. These things are irrelevant when the house is on fire. When you know what attachment is, the house is on fire. You can put it aside.