Question was asked to Osho: THIS EGO SEEMS TO FEED ON EVERY POSSIBLE TYPE OF SITUATION, AND THE SITUATION WHICH GIVES IT THE MOST STRENGTH AND NOURISHMENT ARE THE SUPPOSED SPIRITUAL SITUATIONS. I WOULD LIKE TO TAKE SANNYAS BUT I CAN ALREADY FEEL THE WHOLE EGO THING HAPPENING IN AN INTENSELY STRONG WAY. FEEDING OR STARVING IT, RETREATING OR CONFRONTING IT, IT DERIVES NOURISHMENT BOTH WAYS. WHAT TO DO?
The question is asked by Michael Wise.
Be wise – listen to me. Give the ego to me, that’s what sannyas is. If you take sannyas, then the ego can feed itself upon it. I give you sannyas; you simply accept it. You have only to have that much courage, and then ego cannot exist: you have not done anything.
Whenever you come to me, first I try to give you sannyas. But there are very foolish people; they say, “We will think.” They think they are clever. They start thinking about it – “someday they will come” – and they come, and they ask for sannyas and I give them. But in the first place what I was going to give them, that would have been totally different. Then it would have been a gift from me, not a doing on your part. If you do something, then the ego can feed on it. It is just a gift from me; then there is no question of the ego. But you miss the gift and then you come and beg; then the whole beauty is lost. You take sannyas because of your decision; then the ego can come in. If you leave it to me, then there is no point then it is my problem. You need not be worried about it.
Give your ego to me and forget all about it and start living, and I will take care of your ego.
So Michael Wise, be wise.
Question was asked to Osho: OSHO, FIRSTLY I DID NOT BELIEVE THAT IT WAS AT ALL POSSIBLE, BUT SOMEHOW I FOLLOWED YOU. THEREAFTER I DID NOT THINK THAT IT WOULD EVER BE SO SOON, BUT SOMEHOW I PERSISTED WITH YOU. AND THEN, THROUGH YOU THE IMPOSSIBLE HAS BECOME POSSIBLE, THE DISTANT THE IMMEDIATE.
THOUGH I KNOW THAT I HAVE ONLY TAKEN THE FIRST FEW STEPS, MORE AND MORE MOMENTS ARE GATHERING WHEN IT FEELS LIKE THE END OF THE JOURNEY. IT IS PAINFUL AND YET SWEET: PAINFUL NOT TO SEE YOU THERE ANYMORE, BUT SWEET TO FEEL YOU EVERYWHERE.
LEST I DISAPPEAR WITHOUT SO MUCH AS SAYING THANK YOU TO YOU, MAY I PLEASE SAY IT NOW… WHEN YOU ARE STILL THERE FOR ME?
This is from Swami Ajit Saraswati. This is going to be so for each one of you. You have to come with me, “somehow.” That “somehow” is important. You cannot be knowingly with me, because you don’t know where you are being led. You cannot be considerably with me, logically, rationally with me, because I am taking you into the unknowable. I am taking you somewhere where you have never been, to a space that has never happened to you. “Somehow” is the right word – somehow you come With me. In love, in a sort of madness, drunk with me you come with me. Then by and by things start happening. Of course you had never believed that they would happen so soon.
The darkness in which you are is such that you cannot believe that the light can happen to you ever, and when it starts happening it seems almost, that the impossible is happening. You cannot trust your own eyes; you feel as if you are moving in a dream. But by and by the dream becomes the real and the real becomes the dream.
Exactly this is going to happen to you all, what has happened to Ajit.
Let me repeat it: “Firstly I did not believe that it was at all possible, but somehow I followed you.” Those who can follow me, somehow, are the courageous ones. I cannot convince you to come with me, because there is no way to convince you about something you have never known. There is no way to convince you about something of which you have never heard. You have to trust me; you have to come with me somehow.
I cannot argue because the experience that I am going to communicate to you, the experience that I am going to transfer to you, cannot be argued about. It is beyond argument. If you are not convinced, I cannot convince you. If you are convinced, then I can take you over, then I can possess you.
So only people who are mad enough are ready for me. Those who are very clever, I am not for them. They will have to wander a little longer, stumble in darkness and grope in darkness.
I can give you the gift of the unknown, it is ready, but you have to be ready to receive it. And of course you can only be “somehow” ready. It is a miracle; to be with me is a miracle. It cannot happen logically, but it happens. That’s why people will say to you that you are hypnotized. In a way they are right. You are not hypnotized, but you are in a sort of drunkenness.
“Thereafter I did not think that it would ever be so soon, but somehow I persisted with you. And then, through you the impossible has become possible, the distant the immediate. Though I know that I have only taken the first few steps, more and more moments are gathering when it feels like the end of the journey. It is painful and yet sweet: painful not to see you there anymore….” The moment you can see yourself, you will not see me anymore because then two emptinesses will be facing each other, two mirrors facing each other. They will mirror infinitely, but nothing will be mirrored.
“It is painful and yet sweet: painful not to see you there: anymore, but sweet to feel you everywhere.” Yes, the moment you cannot see me here in this chair, you will be able to see me everywhere.
“Lest I disappear without so much as saying thank you to you, may I please say it now… when you are still there for me?”
There is no need. Ajit’s whole being has become a thank you towards me. No need to say it… I have heard before you have said it.
Tags: Patanjali Two Emptinesses
