VBT – Non-Dual Love 00.3
Mind Is Doubt
What is the doubting mind?
Two or three things more…. When you ask a question, you may be asking for many reasons. One may be just this, that you want a confirmation. You already know the answer, you have the answer, you just want it to be confirmed that your answer is right. Then your question is false, pseudo; it is not a question. You may be asking a question not because you are ready to change yourself, but just as a curiosity.
The mind goes on questioning. In the mind questions come as leaves come on a tree. That is the very nature of the mind – to question. So it goes on questioning. It matters not what you are questioning, with anything given to the mind it will create a question. It is a machine to grind out, to create questions. So give it anything and it will cut it into pieces and create many questions. One question answered, and the mind will create many questions from the answer. This has been the whole history of philosophy.
Bertrand Russell remembers that when he was a child he thought that one day, when he will be mature enough to understand all philosophy, all questions will be answered. Then later, when he was eighty, he said, “Now I can say that my own questions are there standing, as they were standing when I was a child. No other questions have come up because of these theories of philosophy.” So he said, “When I was young I used to say, philosophy is an inquiry for ultimate answers. Now I cannot say it. It is an inquiry for endless questions.”
So one question creates one answer and many questions. The doubting mind is the problem. Devi says, “Do not be concerned with my questions. I have asked so many things: What is your reality?
What is this wonder-filled universe? What constitutes seed? Who centers the universal wheel?
What is life beyond form? How can we enter it fully above time and space? But do not be concerned with my questions. Let my doubts be cleared. I ask these questions because they are in my mind. I ask them just to show you my mind, but do not pay much attention to them. Really, answers will not fulfill my need. My need is… let my doubts be cleared.”
If we also get clarity like Devi – let my doubt be cleared – you will know how your mind functions and creates a barrier between you and your reality. You will get understanding that MIND IS DOUBT.
But how can the doubts be cleared? Will any answer do? Is there any answer which will clear your doubts? Mind IS the doubt. It is not that the mind doubts, mind is the doubt! Unless the mind dissolves, doubts cannot be cleared.