VBT – Meditation 41.1
The Infiniteness
Ouspensky dedicates one book to George Gurdjieff as “the man who disturbed my sleep.” Such people ARE disturbers. Persons like Gurdjieff or Buddha or Jesus, they are disturbers. That is why we take revenge upon them. Whosoever disturbs our sleep, we will crucify him. He doesn’t look good to us. We may have been dreaming beautiful dreams and he comes and disturbs our sleep.
We want to kill him. The dream was so beautiful.
The dream may be beautiful and I may not be beautiful, but one thing is certain: it is a dream, and futile, useless! And if it is beautiful, then it is more dangerous because it can attract you more, it can become a drug.
We have been using music as a drug, dancing as a drug. And if you want to use music and dancing as drugs, then they will become not only drugs for your sleep, they will become drugs for sexuality also. So remember this point: sexuality and sleep go together. The more sleepy the person, the more sexual; the more awake, the less sexual. Sex is basically rooted in sleep. When you awake you will be more loving, the whole energy of sex will have been transformed to love.
This sutra says: WHILE LISTENING TO STRINGED INSTRUMENTS, HEAR THEIR COMPOSITE CENTRAL SOUND – their complete central sound – THUS OMNIPRESENCE. And then you will know what is to be known, or what is worth knowing. You will become omnipresent With the music, finding the composite central core, you will become awake, and with that awakening you will be everywhere.
Right now, you are somewhere – a point which we call the ego. If you can become awake, this point will disappear. You will not be anywhere then, you will be EVERYWHERE – as if you have become the all. You will have become the ocean, you will have become infinite.
The finiteness is with the mind.
The infiniteness enters with meditation.
Your being is a mystery. The more you know, the less you know it. The deeper you go, the more you see the infiniteness. The depth is such that you cannot touch the bottom of it – never. People who think they know themselves are very superficial. People of depth always become aware of something unknown. And it is beautiful because the unknown is always alive, and the unknown is always infinite. The unknown is eternal.
Socrates said, “Know thyself.” He means try to know thyself – not that you will be able to know. And after Socrates, a Roman – Marcus Aurelius – said, “Be thyself.” He is better than Socrates. “Know thyself” is impossible, but “be thyself” is possible. There is no need to know, just be. Knowledge is irrelevant; being is enough. Just be yourself.
So don’t try to find a definition of your being. It is impossible. Live it, you can; know it, you cannot. Why be bothered about knowing? Isn’t being enough?
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