Aloneness
No thought, no mind, no choice – just being silent, rooted in yourself.
Aloneness becomes so thick and dense that you cannot be there, you cannot have an I, an ego, a sense of separation from existence. Your I is nothing but a sense of separation. When you find yourself one with existence, no knowledge is needed. In your innocence, you will know all that is great, all that is beautiful, all that is true. But it will not be a repetition from any scripture and it will not be anything borrowed. It will be truly yours, it will have your signature on it.
And this is one of the greatest blessings in life, to have some experience which is absolutely yours and not a carbon copy. Only that which is absolutely new – original, arising from the very source of your being – can give you satisfaction, fulfillment, contentment and a deep understanding of all the mysteries of life and existence.
It is good to start with innocence, but remember there are two kinds of innocence: one is of the child and the other is of the meditator. The meditator also becomes a child, but that is on such a different level, at such a great height – as if the child is in the valley and the enlightened man who has again become a child is on the sunlit peak. The distance is tremendous. But there is a certain similarity, a thread running from the child to the heart of the sage. The child cannot understand the sage, but the sage can understand the child. Always remember it as a fundamental rule: the lower cannot understand the higher, but the higher can always understand the lower.
If anything in your life can be compared with that high peak, it is your childhood. Try to rediscover it. Don’t cover it with knowledge so that you can forget it. Remove all knowledge, so that you can rediscover your innocence. As you remove your knowledge, you will be removing your mind itself, because your mind is a collective name for your knowledge. It is not any entity – just as we call these trees around here “the garden,” but the garden is only a collective name. If you go looking for the garden, you are not going to find it. You will always find individual trees, rose bushes, seasonal flowers, but you will not find the garden as such anywhere.
Remember, we get lost with collective names many times. We start thinking that those collective names are realities; they are not. Society does not exist. Organized religion does not exist; it only pretends. Christianity, Islam, Buddhism don’t exist – all pretensions. What exists is the individual.
The mind does not exist, it is only a collective name for all your knowledge. Take out, by and by, all that you know and when all that you know has been taken away, you will not find any mind there, not even a container in which all that knowledge was contained. There is no container. Being purely innocent, centered in yourself, knowing that life is a mystery and there is nothing to know, that knowledge is by its very nature impossible, we are surrounded by the miraculous.
It is beautiful that we are surrounded by the miraculous because that makes life a continuous excitement, an ecstasy. You never tire of discovering new spaces within you. You are never bored because the deeper you move within yourself, there is always something new. The deeper you move within yourself, you are moving toward existence itself, because deep down you are rooted in existence. If a tree moves deep into its roots, it will find the earth, it will find the ocean. It is rooted in the earth, deriving water from the ocean.
If we move into our center… You will be surprised to know that our center also has its roots in existence, though they are not visible roots. Our consciousness is just like air. It is not visible, but you can feel it. You can feel when the air is cool and you can feel when the air is hot. You can feel your consciousness in many ways: when it is pure, it is cool; when it is impure, it is hot. Impure with anger, impure with greed, impure with desires, impure with goals – then it is hot, then it is not at ease, then there is no peace inside. But when all these desires have left you, there is a tremendous coolness which goes on growing.
As you come closer to yourself, you are coming closer to the universe – and the greatest moment in your life is when you accept the mystery of existence as it is, without asking any question. Then you have understood one thing: existence is mysterious and is going to remain mysterious. There is no need, of any knowledge. That means you have settled with the universe as mysterious and you have settled with yourself as innocent.
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